Monday, July 1, 2013

silence

My heart beats.
So heavy, it sinks.
I drown
in a sea of memory.
I miss you.
I begin to feel accursed,
for the choices i've made haunt my every day.
without you, i can see where i'm going..
i can see it all.
i love you like a silent gun,
without bullets anyway.
i've made too many mistakes, 
you were never one of them.
no, you're the scar that reminds me 
of all the errors i'm guilty of instead.

forgive myself.
forgive myself.

i held the gun for you,
your hand in mine,
held it up to my chest-
blasted me away.
ripped into shreds,
i'm still hurting. 

consequence. 

i'm torn without you.